DEAR DADDY
Mommy, mommy, where did daddy go
I'm sorry baby, but I don't know
When he left he said he was going to the store
But it's been three years
Maybe more
Maybe he got lost in the crowd
Maybe your screams got too loud
Maybe he realize that his first born, his baby boy
Would never grow up to become a quarterback like Troy
Maybe he got tired of the questions, the stares
Maybe his reality became his darkest nightmare
Maybe after considering all the facts
He just decided not to come back
Baby, I guess he's not the man I thought he was
Because he doesn't understand the concept of patients and love
I guess he realize that it takes more to be a daddy, than just sowing his seed
Especially when caring for a child with special needs
He obviously couldn't take the pressure anymore
So he chose to walk through the door
Daddy, daddy, I'm sending you a message written with love
I'm sorry I'm not the son that you can be proud of
Nevertheless, why did you leave, where did you go
There are so many things that I need to know
But you left me behind
With so many unanswered questions plaguing my mind
You left mommy to do it alone
To face all the challenges all on her own
But daddy, I wonder, if I were different
Would that have kept you home
Mommy said that one of the effects of my disorder is to divide and conquer
But she also said what doesn't kill you
Only makes you stronger
So I need you to lend me your hand
And somehow try and make me understand what went wrong
Daddy, daddy, I need you here to teach me how to be a man
You know that's something mommy doesn't really understand
So can we all just try and get along
Mommy needs you too
Though she won't admit
When you left, her heart got very sick
Now she's just angry that you chose to give up
Angry that you decided to quit
Daddy, I'll forgive you for leaving me
Then maybe one day we could be a family
Author, Sharon Corinthian, 2019
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